Dear Diary...

I really, really, really want to not be fat. But I also really, really, really want. to. eat. I love food. I love tasting food. I love smelling food. And I hate being HUNGRY! So, I am at a crossroads. I just don't know what to do with myself. I just wish I had a friggin steady job, that would allow me some semblance of routine, and then maybe I could get my shit together.

I know that we don't have money to be throwing around for just anything, but I also know that we are not about to be put out on the street just yet, either. I hate that when I spend a few dollars to do or buy something that makes me happy, even if only for a moment, I get treated like I'm an ungrateful step child. But when he wants to spend money on something, it's suddenly ok, and I can't say anything about it, because he has a job, so he can spend money. I thought it was supposed to be "our" money, no matter who was making it.

I just need a damn job already!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hello? Anyone there?

So, this whole blogging thing. How do you get people to read it? I mean, I enjoy talking about myself enough, that the fact that no one is reading it really doesn't phase me, but I would like to know that there is at least one person out there that doesn't think I'm totally crazy. I don't want anyone I know in real life to read it, at least, not knowing that this is me. So I don't wanna go advertising it on facebook or anything, but I don't know how else to get people to notice that I'm on here. Oh well, I guess this can just act as my online diary if nothing else. Hey, that's not a bad idea. Dear Diary...