Still waiting...

It's been a couple of weeks with the new business venture, and it's not looking so good. I've done several more shows, still for people that I know, and have yet to sell another one. I've had one that was fairly interested in it, just "not right now". I'm so not a salesman. I've never had that thing that allows me to push for the close. I'll tell people about an item, and explain why they "should" get it, but once they say "no" that's the end for me. I just can't get past that point. I hate pushy salespeople, and I don't wanna be one, so I don't push. I guess that's why I don't sell.
Anyway, I've decided to take it easy, and not push myself quite as hard as I have the last couple of weeks. I'm too tired. And I miss my TV! And I miss my evening routine, which makes me feel like I'm a hundred or something, but I can't help it. I like coming home, cooking dinner, playing on facebook, and then crashing in front of the tube for a few hours. I miss it. I don't know how I ever worked two jobs!

The weather has been beautiful here the last few days, so we decided to take advantage of it and put up the x-mas lights on the outside of the house yesterday. This is the first year that my husband and I have done outside lights. I bought them after x-mas last year, and have waited all year to put them up. If only I had known. Our ladder was too short, so we borrowed on from the neighbors. It was kinda old, but sturdy enough. Since I'm the smaller between my husband and I, I get the automatic nomination of being the one to climb. Yippee! I don't have a fear of heights so much as I have a fear of falling from those heights. And when I'm standing on a ladder that is tilted because the yard in front of the house is angled, I get a little panicky. I don't think I can do this, so my husband suggests climbing onto the roof and doing it that way. I could get on the roof from the driveway which is level, and we could use the newer, sturdier ladder. I get to the point where the next step is the roof, and the panic sets in again. What if my feet slide off the roof, or what if I get up but can't get down? Why does the roof look so much steeper from this angle? Needless to say, I ain't gettin on the damn roof! So, before we pay the neighbor's kid to climb up there for us, I try the ladder one more time. This time I am able to hang in there and get the lights up. That is, until, we get to the section of the house that even the tall ladder is too short to reach. After going over the options about how to handle this, we come up with only one possible solution, the neighbor's kid. He's 16 and is always on their roof for the fun of it, so why not? He gladly obliges and comes over to help. I again start to panic while he's dancing around on the roof, getting precariously close to the edge. But he manages to get the lights up without killing himself. But now we're out of lights. When I bought 4 boxes last year, turns out I should've bought more like 6, so the garage is just going to have to go without lights this year. After 3 panic attacks, and about 2 hours of trial and error, we did manage to get the lights up. Now, how we're gonna get them down remains to be seen. Maybe we'll just be the crazy people that leave the lights up all year. I at least understand now why they do that.